the empty air

there is no connection,
not a real relationship

just the empty air
that scares me.

infected and devastated

i rarely dream
but now, i am not sure if it's that i really dont dream
or my dream's too natural that i think it's a part of my life.
and then, i start wondering if "it" really happened.

i dont know what's happening.

i just can't explain ...

the world needs more love letters

• less coolness, more honesty
• less alcohol, more connections
• less excuses, more changes
• less I, more we
• less of the future, more of the past
  

same same but different

1. since last monday, i am just tired.
like too tired all the time. i mean way too tired.
i can never wake up anymore even when i go sleep early.

2. i guess it's a good thing; i can't drink anymore.
i dont know how but my tolerance went down a lot.
i just feel getting old. physically i can feel it.

3. my body reacts differently to other things
or i feel like my body is not what it used to be
or i feel like this is not my body.

4. Young and Restless.
good music.
wicked live.

5. i am sad how it's already over.
the end in so many different layers.
layers of mind.

6. sometime we think we are different.
but at the end, we discover that we are not different.
or everyone think that way so we are not different.

headache, bruises, neckpain, red eyes, broken eardrum, shaky legs, and empty yet rad soul

late into darkness, sitting right in front of a club
among all other smoking losers of youth
i am just getting into my mind zone
easy peasy decision to make
but hard to execute
or not execute
at the end
i, i lost

and a morning after, that feeling when the right thing is carried out.

indecision and frightening decision

i am not wholly "overwhelmed" by decisions i need to make
but just tired and dont want to make decisions at all.
like, not now. give another year or at least another semester.

come on-

everyone's just racing forward and i barely started walking.
and i know every decision i make now will follow my ass
all my life, preaching me that i am an idiot. i know that already!

i dont know. there are just too many stuffs going on
and i barely have time and energy to keep myself sane.
i just wish i was brave when i was younger

ps: Enrico Fermi High of Zombie Prom is the song of the day!

ps again: i am getting fatty-er, tanner, and uglier. really!!

conversation at sydney uni

so i was wondering around the 2nd year ee department to find a computer cluster so i can print my assignment that was due a few days ago. i spotted this aged who would be a professor or some sort.

self: excuse me, do you know where the computer cluster is?
oldie: there is a lab around this corner.
self: do you know if i can print using my quota there?
oldie: i am not sure. there might be another one in 4th floor.
self: ahhh
oldie: are you a student here?
self: yea
oldie: (disdainfully) you'll be here next year oi?

return love back to ocean and

being in love means, regarding love agile

deeper and deeper the love, people make little of the love

that heart that believed that someone is only as light as a cloud

spread a wing, cross the pacific, fly to big and small islands of hawaii

blowing gently on a trade wind

- the address of blue sky -

Tout Va Bien

Tout Va Bien by Pipas

You don't say much
But when you do you shout
I never thought you were coming out
The montage of attraction
I threw them all away

Tout va bien
Tell me what you can, tell me what you can
tout va bien (don't you know, it's all so)
Tell me what you can, tell me what you can

You promised to move to London
but that was years ago
i never thought it would happen
but now it has to go
It has to happen

Tout va bien
Tell me what you can, tell me what you can
Tout va bien (don't you know, it's so)
Tell me what you can, tell me what you can

the last day of september

when i was little, pan-fried korean dumplings were my favorite.
i wanted to eat them alone, just dumplings, dumplings, no rice.
or i wanted to eat them while watching a cartoon, 5-6pm weekday.

obviously i wasn't allowed to eat them nowhere but in a dinner
table with a massive bowl of rice and other vegetable bahnchans.

now. i got a big bag of korean dumplings, generic ones,
cooked a dozen, and ate them all. with nothing but soy source.

where is this world heading to?