internet 2012

either i am actively searching for happiness or i am digging a underground parking garage. i dont want to grow up but being twenty something is neither what i want to be. will i ever gain sanity -- that is an ability to forget that my eyes are looking out from eye sockets, my world is limited to my skull, and my synapses are firing all day all night.

my mind is so scattered that a doctor considered amputating it

2012 came out of nowhere. why do i always feel like i have wasted the previous year? why do i always feel like i don't want to do anything? why do i always feel like there is no hope?

doctor, prescribe me some drugs, to forget for now and to feel warmth inside.