i realized, again and again, but gladly again.

i need to find zen. it starts today.
i dial back myself two or three years - i will be calm and distant.

to be alive,

i wonder whether it's better to be dull in my life. ups comes with downs. this moody time of my very human nature lasts -much- longer than a fleeting moment of happiness. just big smiles and just warm hugs. everything that remind me of every great thing. and i swear i was pretty content before that fleeting second.

technical limitation

arrrrrrrrrg
too far too old too far too old