sin, time to time

i enjoy listening to contemporary solid happy gogo pop rock

Marvin Lee Minsky (born August 9, 1927)

In the days when Sussman was a novice, Minsky once came to him as he sat hacking at the PDP-6 (computer).
"What are you doing?" asked Minsky.
"I am training a randomly wired neural net to play Tic-tac-toe," Sussman replied.
"Why is the net wired randomly?", asked Minsky.
"I do not want it to have any preconceptions of how to play," Sussman said.
Minsky then shut his eyes.
"Why do you close your eyes?" Sussman asked his teacher.
"So that the room will be empty."
At that moment, Sussman was enlightened.

myspace blog post on Sunday, April 08, 2007

in this dirty city of the 21st century,
we got noone to lean on.

little bit of sound, little bit of smell, little bit of you and me

we got to move, but never forget what you are leaving behind
we all got big dreams, but never hold on to them

life is hurting; i wont hurt back.

déjà vu 2009 graduate school

i was reading an article on california.
while talking to a friend online.
an unproductive evening in a lab,
why am i sitting here?
then i got this déjà vu.
hit me and left me unsatisfied!

lets horserun by cryingnut

things i love at this moment

a hot radiator, rain, a comfy couch, self-isolation, thousands Valpak coupons, leftover chinese food, tv shows that i never watch, painkillers

swine flu at the first hand

i felt sick sunday evening. that morning i went a grocery shopping and a big brunch. feeling quite good. monday morning i woke up, feeling really crappy. i got sick. oh well. suck it up. it didnt get any better tuesday or today.

so i went to a university clinic. a nurse measured a temperature which came out to be 96.xx and told me i dont have a fever. but i got a headache and i've been feeling tired all day. i cough a bit and my nose is stuffed.

wait. wait. wait. wait. with a blue mask on. wait. wait. then a doctor came in. she looked into my ears and listened to how i breath, since my medical record says i have a mild asthma.

but let me tell you, how she treated me badly. well. anyhow. she said i have flu and i should go read their special website on swine flu. then she gave me tamiflu, which is very ineffective for swine flu or seasonal flu. then she told me i need to self-isolate myself for days without going to classes, work, dining halls, and whatnot. i must talk noone without a mask. i must report my flu to a bunch of administrative people at the university. i must report my temperature everyday.

bullshi.

ps: btw, i am happy pam got married

sick

fuck

stop

i cant get SICK :(

then, reminding myself to remind myself to reflect on my past month or so. tomorrow tomorrow and tomorrow have been 2 months now. so is life.

hellish week

but i know i will survive.
in the end, nothing will really change much.
no reason to complain.
everything fades out and becomes meaningless.

only principle in my life

"the secret for harvesting from existence the greatest fruitfulness and greatest enjoyment is — to live dangerously."