i am regretting

i am regretting that i wasn't passionate enough
i am regretting that i wasn't strong enough
i am regretting that i wasn't enjoying it enough
i am regretting that i wasn't crazy enough
i am regretting that i wasn't pushing it enough
i am regretting that i wasn't loving it enough
i am regretting that i wasn't insane enough

i wanna go back. i am afraid of getting old. i am already too old.
in a middle of two worlds, letting it go isn't easy. two worlds collapse.

domino

every event ever happened before today affects a current affair.
every event ever happened to me shapes a current me.
every event ever happened in lives of all people who are connected to me makes an affair and me.

i HATE all the events ever happened. why can i be nobody?

two double O se7en

1. sleep early (let's say "before 2 am")
2. wake up early (what about "before 9:30")
3. eat at least three full meals a day
4. run or exercise every other day
5. make a plan and follow (?)
6. do something adventurous every week
7. be nice to people
8. be nice to people
9. don't be lame, don't sell my soul to the devil

i don't want 2007 to start...

who cares about 2007

seriously.