i am regretting

i am regretting that i wasn't passionate enough
i am regretting that i wasn't strong enough
i am regretting that i wasn't enjoying it enough
i am regretting that i wasn't crazy enough
i am regretting that i wasn't pushing it enough
i am regretting that i wasn't loving it enough
i am regretting that i wasn't insane enough

i wanna go back. i am afraid of getting old. i am already too old.
in a middle of two worlds, letting it go isn't easy. two worlds collapse.