nothing's real, only hyper-real

suddenly we are facing multiple life-changing choices
decisions have to come out shortly, yet not lightly
snorting a gram of cocaine or getting a job this summer

however at this point, i have nothing to choose from
only lengthy applications with lengthier essay questions
questions i can not grasp at all - something i am still trying

if i just sit here, no application would be filled up
i won't have to be kicking myself for being indecisive
if i were to do them, i'd be kicking myself for lying

essays that are so much cooler and better than myself