living and maximizing

it is not too hard to realize that i have wasted my life
or at least that i have not lived my life fully, fully.

and to outsiders, that would be an understatement
because it seems like i have lived a colorful life.

maybe that is why i failed. Camouflage, that is.
the surrounding *seems* exciting, yet i barely do anything.

the obvious answer is that i should start living fully
but more or less i don't know how or i feel it's too late.

but then i am wasting this very moment.