why didn't i just get wasted today?

even in time of crisis, like finals
in time of devoted afternoon study session
i acquire no sense of emergency, thus
wasting far more hours - plain garbage

soon, what comes is evening, followed by late night
i didn't even notice, not because i was inside,
but because i focus too well on wasting time
now hunger and heavy eye lids are complaing

the final is in 2 days and i kick myself
but i know i will do the same tomorrow

sigh.