tension headache

i have this never-ending headache on both sides of my skull. i slept enough and didn't do anything crazy over this weekend. i almost feel like slightly dying away, or gradually becoming an alcoholic.

but truthfully i really like drinking alone. the hurricane irene brought me such an opportunity and i think i am hooked. no pounding music, no awkward social interaction, no need for any sense or sanity. the irene was great yesterday -- the street was so clean with noone outside, it was cool and very breezy, and only people wondering the street were chill as fuck.

this headache does not help me to find a new place to move in. i am not sure how i will evacuate my summer sublet in 2 days, but i must. i am now considering bumming off friends will be likely an option. i dont know if i have that many good friends tho.

in the past two three weeks, i tried a few different, and definitely positive, things and made good ol efforts in departments that i rarely care for. as if i thought my self could be happier. i only lost faith in humanity.

then im back. with this migraine.