i can't pinpoint

nothing changed and nothing's the same
people grew up and i am stuck behind
but i must pretend i am a developed animal
100 caplets of diphenhydramine hcl might help
2 steps forward would be kind
but i cant afford to take a step back anymore
30 weeks to drag myself despite no desire to finish
too many what-ifs and too many regrets
too little time left and too little will power
i cant go sleep and a little portion of myself died
im simply tired of myself and my life.
and i thought i would never think that.