be forgotten

sometimes though i look back and realise
what a mess i have become.
along my way, i wonder when i lost my common sense.

inside has tangled up too much i have no control.
so now im just trying to burn that up
hoping that will just sink to the bottom of my heart

but it already has been so long
i doubt i'd ever forgive myself. i know,
i've just been making everything just hard for myself.

i would just regret one decision after another.
right when i can make a right choice, back to normality,
i can not, because it's been too long.