learning process

when i was little, i was a good kid.
especially i never had a thing that i wanted get.
i never cling to someone to clamor for candies, toys, or clothes.

most, if not all, of my drawers were from my brothers
we never had one single candy,
and we had snacks only when we had guests.

now, i am supposedly grown up.
and unfortunately i never learned how to give up and let it go.
how am i supposed to live this life when i actually never grew up.