my childhood's scariest dream

(i just recalled this and it is still very scary)

back in my home country, my apartment was in a huge complex
that contained hundreds of same rectangular ivory+grey+bit of
very light green "apartments".

each apartment usually had 3 completely separated front doors
that lead to 50 units, two untis facing each other in 25 floors.
so in a floor, there are only two units and they are not connected
to any other unit. there was no way to get to neighbor apartment
without taking an elevator back down and going into a different
front door.

in my dreams, i had to take an elevator to my home.
but somehow i went into a different front door and catching
an elevator. i was somehow believing that that elevator would be
able to take me to my home. and there, i was pushing a button
believing that'd be the right button to my unit.

now an elevator is moving. speeding up. going up.
and it passes my floor and up up up.
at that point, im a bit scared of speed but still believing that
this elevator will eventually go to my home, it's not that bad.
i had believed that an elevator will go to the top floor and switch
to the next series of units. or something like that. ridiculous.
but then, suddenly it stops and starts moving downward.
soon i know, this elevator is freely moving in 3 dimension.
it's just absolutely going crazy and i am just scared to death.
i am not really scared of speed or its movement..
idk. i am scared that it was trying to kill me. this elevator is.

so i press a ground button. then suddenly the elevator drops,
drops. it seems like forever. so there was a slight moment
of hope. yes and no. no i was wrong. the elevator passes the
ground level and goes down forever. and then again developing
3 dimensional crazy up-down-right-left shit.
(i dont recall feeling the elevator rotating or flipping.)
i start clicking all and any buttons, but none works the way
i intend. the elevator is going in directions that make me soooo
scared.

and then before i realized i couldnt take it anymore. i woke up.
now im thinking, i think i died or passed out in my dream then i woke up

i dreamt very similar dreams like this really often.
i dont know when the last time i dreamt this.
i dont want to.

(i got really scared while writing this, goose bumps everywhere)