looking back for a minute, only for a minute.

there are things that i wish i did something different
you know.

just that one moment, i wish i didnt do that
a slight different choice would have made everything better
(maybe worse. but ... well)

because i was too bored, because i was too depressed
because i was too desperate, because i was too dumb

it is really small things. tiny little decisions.
well not exactly decisions; things that i just did
i shouldnt have messaged, i shouldnt have kissed,
i shouldnt have left early, i shouldnt have gone there.

i am just too young but too old.
i will never learn.