i lost my feelings

it's like there is this thing called "feelings"
and just like i am so clumsy, i lost my feelings.
(and i am not talking about a mixed feeling i get when getting haircut)

i am very tired. but i am also relaxed.
i am really sad leaving my school. but i feel hyped and pumped.
i am glad it's finally over. actually it was beyond a description.
yet i am totally depressed because things and people will be never
like last two years. i am done. and in a way, noone cares.

it's like my life. i love it but i hate it.