you and i should meet

when i was young, i thought i was smart;
avoiding obvious pitfalls and clear disasters
avoiding twisted drama and unnecessary emotion.

i am mindless.
have i become mindless or was i born this way?
regretful decisions and soulless conversation.

i don't want to say anything; either way it's my lose

now it's all over. all over my head and all over my soul.
everything is out of my control. i can't do anything.
i can't fix anything.

i missed the bus. you missed the train.