lukewarm

it's not like i have never known this fact
it's not like i just realized this today
anyway.. i know i am just a cup of lukewarm coffee.
always knew that i guess.

i am always digging a new hole; after 20 years of that,
i ended up with nothing. nothing spectacular.
hell. if i am spectacular, i wouldn't sit here writing this.
it's saturday night.

i fail everything. i am not going to be a rock star, for sure.
and i have no place to resort to.